Mixed emotions

The new year has started out pretty crappy. I lost my grandma, our Church, and some of our friends. But even with the way the past two months have been, God is so awesome. I have no clue what he has in store for our family, but I know it's something big. I miss my grandma so much and so many times, I want to call or go over and visit her. Even if I never told her the reason I came to visit, visiting with her made my day. My grandma was my biggest inspiration on earth aside from my dad. My grandma lived a long beautiful life and never once did I ever see her faith shaken. I have so many goals that I want to accomplish this year and even though the road is starting out bumpy, I won't give up. And God couldn't have placed a better person in my life to walk through it with than my husband. I don't know if anyone reads this, but if you are please pray for our family. Right now there is so much hurt and confusion that has happened. Sometimes it feels as though there is no light at that the end of the tunnel. I am not by any means saying we were not apart of the hurt and confusion nor am I trying to bash or be little anyone or anything. I simply just want peace in my heart. I have always been the type of person who is strong in her beliefs and not afraid to stand up for them. And boy have I learned that can get you in trouble. I think that so many times, we need to really evaluate the situation before speaking. That is something I will be working on.