Good news/bad news

Last night Scott and I went out with the Hinmans and the Garmens. We went to see the movie Fireproof at the Murphey theater in Wimington. After the movie we went to Eldarodo's to grab a bite to eat and catch up a bit. It gave me a chance to get to know the Garmens . We talked about the movie and jobs, kids, grand kids, our Church, and a bunch of other things. We had a really great time. I treasure any time that I get to spend with the Hinmas! They are really great people. No matter what point you are at in your life, they will see the good in you and show you the encouragement you need!

I am excited about the Super Bowl party tomorrow at the Church. AND it is not because I like football, though you might catch me watching a few seconds of it. ha ha
Scott and I are bringing his special cheese dip and chips, peanut butter cookies (depending on how they turn out, I am new at this baking thing lol) cheese ball, and cheese cake (again depending on how it turns out) and some MT Dew! We wanted wings but couldn't figure out a way to have them there HOT lol

So the news......

The company has decided to get rid of the dispatch department, the department I use to be in. They are moving the two remaining people in dispatch over to the project team. They are wanting to have one designated person to handle the dispatches per team, we currently have four project teams. Luckily I am not one of them, but since there will be only one person handling dispatches we will each be taking a turn handling a week of on call per month. One of the biggest perks of moving to projects is that I would have my life back and not have the on call. I guess that is now gone. I do miss having the extra money, but not more than my freedom. I guess I will know more of how the situation will play out when I return to work on Wednesday.

Who had power?

Missy and Trish are currently with out power. Does anyone in Milford/Goshen have power?


Edited to add:

Missy just called and said they are back in business with their electric!

My thoughts for the day

I think Scott passed whatever he had last week right over to me. I left work early yesterday and called in today. I still am not feeling good. When I was younger, I was never sick, seems like the older I get the more I get sick.

Looks like we are finally getting the snow that Christine has faithfully been praying for. I haven't even attempted to go outside to enjoy it. Honestly I don't even think I have looked out a window today.

Have you ever done something and then later regretted. That is where I am at right now. My children and my husband are the loves of my life and sometimes I react to things that concern them with out thinking. I want what is best for them, and my first thought that if someone is not treating them right is to put them in their place. Looking back, there was defiantly a better way that I could have handled that.

I am really looking forward to meeting up with Dave and Robin on Friday. Scott and I have a triple date night planned! Dinner and a movie! Fireproof is now on DVD and I can not wait till others from CP can enjoy it and learn from it.

Who needs a girls night!

Tomorrow at noon is my jewelry party! Scott and the guys will be going out for a little bit and I started thinking that it would be nice to have a girl’s night!
Missy and Trish have been hounding me about having a Wii night so I figured we should combine the two together and have a girls Will night!


All are invited!

Just in case you don't know who Brent Keith is....

Did you see who made AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!

Brent Keith!! Woohoo! You all better vote for him!!! How cool is it to have a guy from Blanchester on American Idol!!!!!!

Is it Friday yet?

So normally I am blogging about how crazy work is and the stress. Not this week! This week, I am bored out of my mind!!! I prefer to be busy especially at work it passes the hour much quicker. It seems like every day this week at 2:00pm I am looking at the clock wondering if it is broken!

I made some of the goals I want to achieve at work. One of them was to learn more of the technical stuff. So I have been searching the web and reading up on some things that I can do while things are S-L-O-W.

Shifting my mind off work to random thoughts of the day.

My friend Bethany is battling cancer. She is going through chemo and is feeling awful. Please keep her in your prayers! She is only 24 years old.

I don't want my little Kaylie to move to Tennessee, I will miss her!!!!

Sometimes it hurts to much to care

Jewelry party is Saturday

It really is pointless to argue with someone that just wants to argue back (sorry that was work related lol)

I will get to see my friend Shannon Saturday!!! I haven't seen her since the summer


Hope every one's week is a little more active then mine!

FIREPROOF!!!

We got some awesome news tonight! Our old Church, Dove is hosting the movie Fireproof at the Murphy Theater in Wilmington. Dave and Robin got Scott and I tickets to go see it. We have seen it before (thanks to Trish and Missy) but I think there is so much more to get out of movies like Facing the Giants and Fireproof. Plus we will get some Dave and Robin time. It also ends up being at the perfect time. Since I went back to work early from vacation I still have a few days to take so I had taken off for Friday the 30Th and the following Monday and Tuesday! Which is when the movie will be playing.

We will also be showing the movie at Center Pointe! Lisa, what are you thoughts on doing an outreach for the people of Goshen to watch Fireproof? Trust me, this moving is life changing! Evey time Scott and I disagree I think back to the movie but also the book. For those who have not watched the movie I will not give it away, but it is worth seeing and inviting every married or single person you know!

Carrie

I forgot to include in my last blog a very Happy Birthday to Carrie!!! Yesterday was her birthday and we never ask women how old they are so we will leave that part out!



BTW Carrie and Jeff, we greatly appreciate the ride to and from Church yesterday!

Ballroom Dancing

My husband is obsessed with the idea of taking ballroom dance classes. During small groups this conversation was brought up. It turns out that Jan is actually interested in taking classes, but John was not really for the idea. So as they were trying to talk me into the idea, I said OK if John will. Turns out she didn't even have to twist his arm, he was totally up for the idea. Thanks John for having my back!


Small groups tonight was awesome! I have to admit it is nice to have another guy in the group, for Scott. We looked at the first chapter in the book of Revelation. There was a lot of cool things there that I honestly am not sure I would not of seen if we wouldn't have went into great discussion about it tonight.

This weekend has given me much to think about. I had my review Friday and it went really well! I was impressed with the things that he said and thought about me considering I have not actually worked for him yet. One of the things he asked me to do is write out a list of goals I would like to accomplish within the company. I would also like to do this with my personal goals. I will post them on here soon.

Saturday was a lot of fun at the candle party that Missy and Trish had. Although, I had a little scare, but it was quickly forgotten and we had a great time. I totally fell in love with the candles. I just wish I had some extra money to purchase some lol.

Hope everyone has a great week.

Ready for the weekend.....

This week has been kinda hectic. The project I am working on is quickly coming to an end and we have reached the last 100 sites. Which was our goal for the end of the week. So we have been tracking several extra sites, which ended up lasting until the late evening. I have also been car pooling with Missy. Which has been nice to vent our frustrations and then pray about it together!

Tomorrow I am having my quarterly review, which a project manager I have never actually done work for. Should be interesting. I am glad the weekend has arrived already! I need some relaxing time and girl time at Missy and Trish's candle party. My husband has a huge obsession with candles. Missy and Trish should have invited him lol.

Things will be ok

I am not sure where to start. This weekend has become one of the worst memories of my life. I will not go into great details of all that has happened, but I will say that I am OK. I will be better. And I know that I am not alone. I know that I have not been myself for some time now and that has caused me to lose my entire family excluding Scott and my kids. I lost two of the most important people in my life and I can not make sense of this right now. What I do know is that I can not keep living my life to please others; I have to live my life for myself but most importantly God. I woke up today in so much emotional pain and it is destroying all the good things around me. If I die tomorrow I do not want to be remembered as this girl that was always depressed and pushed everyone and everything away. When I was pregnant with Julie, I promised that I would change my life and live it for Jesus. And as noticeable as it has been, I have not been doing that. Today, I want to start new. I want to find the person I was 9 months ago and hold on to that.

I do ask that people not ask if I am OK, but rather pray for me and my family. Pray that I find peace and my way back.

Loosing it all

If you asked me last week if I would of thought anything that has happened the last few day would happen, I would have said no way. When you think things cant get worse they do. I really need some time to think and clear my head. I am still in shock and I am not sure what to make of what has happened. Someone recently said

"you simply have to keep doing what you are supposed to do. You have to keep going to church, you have to keep reaching out to others, you have to keep serving. When you stop, Satan will blast in harder than ever because he knows he is wearing you down. And then, your struggles turn into indifference and you will lose everything that used to matter to you. It just becomes too hard, too much. "

And I know its true, I had the same thoughts, but after all that is happened I don't know how to go on and move forward. My heart is crushing so bad and all I want to do is sit in my bedroom and cry. How do I make this pain go away. How do I pull it together and stay involved in the things I love or use to love. I don't know how my life got so out of control. Am I that weak that I cant control it. When in the world did I stop living my life for me and attempt to live it for others.

Thought of the day

I apologize if I offended SAHM's. That was not my intentions at all! I was simply implying it wasn't something I could do again, even though it is something I long for. If that makes any since. I went into great depression and felt as though I lost me. I lost my independence and well just who I was.

I write this blog so I can look back and remember some of the greatest things in my life as well as some of the hardships that I faced and got through. It is somewhere I can collect my thoughts and freely speak my mind. It is not intended to be directed toward any individual to hurt or belittle them in any way. If that happened, I again apologize. It bothers me that people take offense to what I was saying as being aimed at them. Every one has there own desires and goals. Some mothers goal is to be a SAHM and watch their children grow. My goals are different. YES I want to watch my kids grow and I want to spend as much time as possible with my babies, but not at the extent that I would fall into depression and be no good to them.

I look at the way things are today as to what they were 6 months ago and am bothered by this. If makes me wonder if this is where I am suppose to be. I pray that God will give me guidance and answers.

Last day of vacation

I am not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I have really enjoyed all the extra time I have been able to spend with my family the past two plus weeks. Sometimes I wish that I would be able to be a stay at home mom. But, I have tried that before and honestly it only depresses me. I get so board out of my mind. Though I must admit that the last two days, I have just been lounging around the house and enjoyed every second. I do have one thing to look forward to. Since I am going back to work early, I am taking 3 days off at the end of the month for the cabin we postponed. Scott and I are going to take a weekend to ourselves, long over due alone time!

I saw God today!

Bonnie had asked that we go to Dove today so that she will be able to see some of her friends before going back to Florida. Scott and I have been wanting to visit, but can't seem to pull ourselves away from CP, so we decided this was as good as time as any.

They had a special speaker a couple from Europe. Kris and Ian gave their testimony on how they found Wilmington, Ohio. It was truly an amazing and touching story. Afterwards they asked if anyone would like to be prayed for, Nearly the entire church went up there. It was one of the most breathtaking experiences I have ever seen. You could feel and see God move in this Church just as we do with everything that CP does.

After Church, I was talking to Dave about New Years resolutions and how I haven't made one yet. Last year my new years resolution was to grow more in the Lord. I have come a long way, but will only benefit me to grow closer. So we decided I am just keeping that same one!