I recently asked that you all pray for a friend of mine that is battling cancer. She recently posted a blog and I wanted to pass it on. Please keep Bethany in your prayers. God is definitely working on her and in her.
In her words...Here is her thoughts!
Well it almost been a nine months since I found out some serious news about my health. Fighting every step along the way, I am learning that I am stronger! I learned that even in the most toughest times, that I have people backing me up! I wouldn't be honest with myself.....if I didn't say I don't get bitter at times...because I do...sometimes I feel like it is way to much to bear....but then all my friends and family come into play. They remind me what life is really about, that the reason I am going through a hard time is to help someone else....and my aunt went through a similar type to help me through my rough times. There was time a few months ago where I completely shut everyone out, because though people were concerned it drove me insane getting questioned on how I was feeling...same question different people, finally talking to my parents help me realize how to deal with my anxiety...I just wanted to live a normal life!!! Even in the first month of knowing I hid from everybody even work....almost lost my job over my sickness...but with lots of prayer I got through it!!! Now, I am surviving pretty well I think.Granted just like everybody else, I have new stresses everyday, that pile on. It is just how we handle that sets my mood right. I go for my treatments, and praying everyday that the next test results will be positive. So far I have survived a tumor, and 2 spots of cancer being healed by the grace of God. I know he has healed me through, because during that time period I didn't have any chemo. Last year alone was probably one of the hardest...I lost 2 babies in one year...and being emotionally attached is hard to deal with. But, though I still am working on dealing with that, I don't think anybody gets over a lost so much...but I am still alive...and those babies are in a better place...so I can move on with that!!! SO I AM PRAYING FOR A BETTER HEALING IN 2009!!! And if I have to go through this stage in my life to help someone else, to teach me to have patience, more loving, and kind to others....then you might think I am crazy, but I AM THANKFUL TO GO THROUGH IT TO LEARN EVERYTHING I AM LEARNING ABOUT MYSELF...So GOD chooses to let me have my cervical cancer then so be it!! I am willing to let him lead me in the right direction.....
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Wish you health and happiness!
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