If you asked me last week if I would of thought anything that has happened the last few day would happen, I would have said no way. When you think things cant get worse they do. I really need some time to think and clear my head. I am still in shock and I am not sure what to make of what has happened. Someone recently said
"you simply have to keep doing what you are supposed to do. You have to keep going to church, you have to keep reaching out to others, you have to keep serving. When you stop, Satan will blast in harder than ever because he knows he is wearing you down. And then, your struggles turn into indifference and you will lose everything that used to matter to you. It just becomes too hard, too much. "
And I know its true, I had the same thoughts, but after all that is happened I don't know how to go on and move forward. My heart is crushing so bad and all I want to do is sit in my bedroom and cry. How do I make this pain go away. How do I pull it together and stay involved in the things I love or use to love. I don't know how my life got so out of control. Am I that weak that I cant control it. When in the world did I stop living my life for me and attempt to live it for others.
2 comments:
Diana, I don't have the answer to all your questions, but I do have an ear to listen. please call if you'd like to talk...missy is here too and we both are ready to listen....right now! Please call! We love you! And try to smile....or I'll tickle you tomorrow....that just made you laugh....didn't it??? LOL
Diana, It is best to just give God control of every situation. If He is running your life, you cannot mess it up. God knows how you feel, and He wants you to reach out to Him, He wants you to want Him. You are far from weak. You are a very strong and faithful person, one of the strongest I have ever known. You need to go to God and ask Him for some direction. He is the only one who can ease you heart and your mind regarding any of this.
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