The best

We had a great time at CP yesterday! Bonnie had a chance to meet our Church family. After Church we came home, unloaded the car, sat down on the couch, turned the TV on and them out went the electric.

At this point the memorial service had not been cancelled, so we decided to go a head and get ready and leave a little early. As we were fighting the wind to get there, we got a call letting us know the service was postponed until today. So we drove back to the house. We lit every candle we owned and played some games with the kiddos. By the time we were done with the games, we were all pretty hungry. We had nothing that didn't have to be cooked to eat but crackers. So we decided to venture up town. Wouldn't you know that as soon as we arrived at the first three restaurants they were closing. We finally went to Gold Star, being the only restaurant open they were out of everything almost. They did have hamburgers and chicken, which is very good by the way.

We came home and Scott got out his guitar. Scott, Bonnie, the kids and I sat around singing. Our neighbors probably think we are crazy with out way out of tune voices. But we had a blast. Then we shared some stories with each other. It ended up being a great family night. And for the first time ever I was glad the electric was not on! Now I am getting a little impatient. It has almost been 24 hours. The weirdest part of it is that half the town has electric.

Hope the rest of you had fun with your electricity experience last night.

The card!

I received a card in the mail this week from Susan. Wow it couldn't have come at a better time. I have been so "thrown" into my work and personal things going on in my life that I haven't been looking at the important things. I failed at that point of handing it over to God. I was hanging onto to much worry and I shouldn't have been. I was disappointed in myself that I didn't put my trust in God, which is what I should have done all along. I struggled with praying for myself and reading HIS word and this discouraged me even more.

Susan sent me a card and this is the verse she wrote in it

"From the end of the Earth, I will cry to you, When my heart is overwhelmed Lead me to the rock that is higher than I"
PS 61:2

She wrote much more that truly touched my heart. But what really hit home for me was something she enclosed in the card that had deep meaning to her. I honestly don't know Susan that well and for her to give me something that obviously means something to her tore me up. When I first got the card, I read it and started to cry. Then I felt guilty because I felt like I haven't tried to get to know Susan better. When I read the card again today, I realized that this is the start of a new beautiful friendship that God had planned.

Susan, thank you so much for taking the time to reach out to me when I was so down. Thank you for praying for me and my family, thank you for showing me just what I needed to see and most of all thank you for having the faith that I didn't have.

A little bit of an update

This week defiantly started out rough, but I am feeling much better. I actually went to sleep last night at 8:30, yes that is correct! And I slept through the entire time for the first time in weeks! When I got into work today, my big boss sent me an email telling me to come see him. Low and behold it was good news! He told me that I was doing a good job and that I would be getting a raise and would be moved up to a CCA 2. But what really encouraged me this week was a card I received in the mail. I will post more about that soon. Thank you all for praying for me and my family.

Betty Curtis

Scott's Aunt Betty Curtis passed away this evening around 6:00pm. We know that she is in a much better place and no longer in pain. The family is taking it really hard, please keep them all in your prayers.

Here are some memories I have of Betty.

-She was a women with a love for God like no other.

-She loved children and insisted on all children to call her grandma even my kids.

-She loved having parties in her beautiful back yard.

-She had a heart of gold, her love for others shines through.

-Betty just celebrated her 50Th anniversary with the love of her life Jodi last January.

-Betty was the first person other than my mother-n-law, Bonnie to welcome me into the family

I could go on forever, she was just an amazing women and I am blessed that I was a part of her life even if it was for such a short time.

Not feeling any better

Thank you for the prayers, through comments, emails and I even had a few come up to me at Church. It means a lot to be surronded by ones that love/care for me.

I got extra sleep last night and even took a nap this afternoon, but I am still feeling quite exhausted. I feel over worked, used, powerless, un appreciated by my family and work. I don't know how to make this feeling go away. I am in much need of getting away, but that is completely out of the question for any time soon. I am getting way off focus and pretty discouraged with Scott being off work. The bills are getting so overwhelming and this month is both the kids birthday party.

This past week, I have been struggling with reading my Bible and praying. I can pray for other people and the things that they are going through, but am having a hard time praying for myself. Any thoughts or ideas on that one?

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I have been mentally and physically exhausted. I really felt it tonight when we were at the Volunteer dinner. I am drained to the point that there are days that I just don't want to get out of bed, but I know that I have to so I do it. This month has been so extremely hard on me, with Scott out of work for awhile. I know that as long as I put my faith and trust into the Lord everything will work out the way it is meant to.

The Brock & Morgan family did an outstanding job on the Volunteer dinner! It felt weird to be served by them when both their families do SO much for CP and the CP families. We love you guys for all that you do!

Our little girl isn't all that girly

I was helping Julie with homework the other night and she started to get frustrated. She folded her hands and bowed her head and said a pray to God. It was the coolest thing to see a 5 year old do. I am so proud of Julie's heart for God. She puts so much trust and faith in Him!

However, Julie has turned into quite the tomboy. She just seems to bond with the boys better. There really isn't any girls her age at Church, but even still at school she would rather hang with the boys than the girls. Scott and I have been struggling with some of her "boy" habits such as spitting and burping the alphabet. Recently Paul Peterson wrote a blog on parenting so Scott and I sent him an email. He had many words of wisdom, but I really liked that he said Scott should "date" Julie. Paul talks about his "dates" with his daughter a lot and they sound like so much fun! Julie loves getting her daddy time too. Sometimes I think she acts like that just for daddy. Scott will be starting his "dates" this weekend.

This is how desperate I am for free gas!

You can only use it once...

FREE Gas Coupon from Shell Oil

Happy Birthday Austin

I am officially a mom to a teenager! That is just plain scary!!! Austin is 13 today. Here is a trip down memory lane or at least the last five years! I love you BUB!

New hours are not so good!!!

Our on call hours have now changed. Instead of being on call at 5:30pm, I don't start on call until 10pm. So far I HATE IT!!! I have had four hours of sleep and it is not looking good tonight either. I stayed up till 6am this morning and had to get back up at 10am to get to the office. I haven't been able to lay back down because of helping Julie with her homework and getting her school stuff together tomorrow and I still have 2 more techs that will be on site after 10pm. I am so tired and trying to stay awake is getting harder. I have to give my husband some well deserved credit. In effort to let me sleep some last night, my awesome husband stayed up till 4am watching the emails and calls, if something came in or some one called then he would wake me up. Needless to say the phone rang a million times so I didn't get much sleep in between but it was awesome that Scott was willing to do that for me. I am hoping the middle of the night for the weekends is much better!


Here is the update I received on Adam.


"I saw Adam again today.He's doing MUCH better than he was doing yesterday!!!! His levels are all going down, which is a really good thing. His stomach is still a little upset.Who's wouldn't after eating hospital food? =)They're transferring him to University Hospital ICU.Don't let that scare you, he's still doing FINE!!!! They have a special liver unit. They want to put Adam on this thing that will make his liver regenerate itself.If on the whim that it doesn't, Adam is going to be put on a transplant list.Everyone in our family is getting their blood checked so that we can give him a part of our liver.Adam IS going to be fine as long as everyone stays strong for him and prays for the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

The family is greatful for all the prayers. They are staying positive and determined not to give up hope. I will keep you updated.